Tuesday, May 14, 2013
life is a gamble xx
I used to dream up blog ideas while standing in line at the grocery store. While going on my numerous walks. Topics would hit me in the shower, while driving to work, during long drives to who knows where. And how I have lost this passion is beyond me. Perhaps I have run out of ideas to write about. I don’t think so. Either way, there is a huge wound on my heart that will not heal. A lot of people cope by relying on close friends to get them through the tough times. My friends don’t even know the real me. There are others that have fun, interesting hobbies to keep them distracted through the rough patches. My hobbies are writing, arts & crafts, and dancing. I often wonder why I was given this hand and whether or not I regret laying down certain cards.
Life is all about taking what you are given and making the most of it. I firmly believe that I do this each and every day. And it turns out my writing, not my other bad choices i make, is what ended up hurting me in the end.
Now there is some fucking irony.
When most kids were playing with dolls and toy cars, I was playing with words. Creating stories. Getting lost in worlds that were so much more peaceful than my own. How can I possibly regret this wonderful gift I was given? The answer is I don’t.
Life is a gamble.
There are times when you are up and times when you are down. There are times when the house takes you for all you are worth and you are left broken and alone. But the point is to stay in the game. At casinos, this is point you need to call a gambling addiction hotline. In life, this is the point where you begin to fly.
Also on my mind today…
I am moving next month. Moving is an enormous pain in the ass, but such an amazing feeling once you get to decorate your new place with your own sense of style. i'm going with the jungle theme. ive always loved that look since getting the idea from my amazing aunt alice years ago :) her home was always decorated just the way i would decorate my place. cheetah print, the whole sha-bang.Walmart had a leopard print comforter set I also got, and bought the black satin sheets and throw pillows to go with it. I'm so excited, can't wait to take pictures :)
After suffering from anorexia, my wallet has finally recived news she is pregnant and will be starting to show enormously in 1-2 months. ;) hehe just kidding, i just really love my new job--i love doing what i do and it pays so well. who really gets best of both worlds like that these days??
I am also adding a new member to my family next month. Just FYI, my family consists of me my boyfriend and my new puppy and no im not pregnant! Stay tuned!
Next month is going to be intense. Bring it.
i'm addicted to all things girly, reality tv, fashion/celeb magazines, and letting my creativity exhume me. im here to share my views, personal opinions, and situations i am going through along with a mix of latest news;; fashion, hair & make up ideas;; beauty tips & tricks;; vacations;; creative ideas & DIY posts;; and just about people in this society in general. i document every thing in my life --i love looking back on it. xx